OMG

Crap!! It has been two months since I last updated this blog. People must have thought that it is dead. Hahaha...maybe it is, maybe it is not. Better not than it is. It is just that life have been a bit complicated at the end of the year where the kids have to go for their exam and now enjoying the first time ever of 1 months paid leave. Ah...life is a bliss for now until next year when I have to go through the tough year of fighting through the year with another batch of students. Man, I can foresee that I am going to be dead anytime soon. Till then, I better chill myself in the comfort of my home.

Ah...life is a bliss. Life is a bliss. Till then, chiao for now. Think i need to update this blog more often then. hahaha....

I have survived.

It has been a long time since I have updated my blog. Man...that must be ages since the last one. Anyhow, time has flown and now everything is back into order or at least I hope that it'll be. Now, I have left with only exercises that is higher than my palm. To tell you the truth, there's a huge different between teaching in a Pre-Uni course and a tertiary course. After having to go through both, I have come to realize that it is so hard to teach a Pre-Uni course. Maybe it is because of all the formatted marking that we are confounded to. In tertiary, there's not muvh moderation from the other nation, but my god, for pre-uni espaecially mine, there's tons. Paper work also a lot compare to LUCT. I really miss the workload that I once had when I was in FIFE. Man, that was the easiest job that one could wish for. All the marking and 'blah-blah' things were internal moderated and the best part was that I am the co-ordicator. So, I report to no one. Now, I have to submit this and that, have to complete this and that. No wonder they say that the bigger the organization, the more paper work that you'll have. Well...what to do. It is part and parcel of the teaching world.

Anyhow, all the paper work are done now. For the next few steps, I just need to pray that my kids will make it through by getting lots of their well-deserve "A". Hehehe...isn't that the dream of every teachers here huh. Anyhow, if I have survived this year, it means that I can survive any where and and programme. Hahahaha...yeah........................

R.I.P

i got no time. i got no time. i got no time. tons of assignment to mark. tons of exam to mark. i am dying. i am turning to dust.

:P padam muka pun sebab ada masa nak pergi ke pulau redang tapi tak a da masa nak menyemak paper pulak. apa nak buat. tu kan asas seorang manusia yang tidak mempunyai displin yang tinggi. tu sebabnya bila kebanyakkan pensyarah memarahi budak-budaknya sebab mals, saya pulak, tak membuat apa-apa sebab saya pun semacam mereka. tidak mempunyai displin yang tinggi.

I am Dying....

Haih!!! Haih!!! HAIH!!! That's all that i can say for know. I am dead tired. With tons of baggy eyes and am damned 'doink'. I don't know what to know. Life is like a piece of puzzle where i have searched endlessly but i couldnt find the right piece to fit into the slow. Yup, that's what i am having now. I have all the work in the world to do but i just don't have the time to do it. an not only that, with a slice of laziness in the backbones, it makes it even worse. day in, day out, i see the same amount of work...untouch. talking about being an efficient teacher. i think i am not really into that category. I am just not in that category. Haih!! Haih!! HAIH!!!

i want my little elves. where are they when you need them? where are they when you want them to help you. i thought that they'll stay to help but apparently they will not. wahahaha......

SCREAM TOWARDS THE AIRPLANE AT THE AIRPORT.

Ah...what a bliss!

Life was so beautiful last week. No teaching. No nothing. No anything except to mark something that I am SUPPOSED to mark but ended up didn't. Yup life was a bliss until when reality struck and we have to move back on with our life.



It's another semester and this is supposedly to be the last half of the semester. After this, I'll miss all my students like how I missed those in LUCT. Life is like a circle when you started working. You see people come and you see people go. The only problem is, it is in a short period of time. Life for example, I way 'Yaying' away when the holidays drawed near but now I am sighing because the holiday is gone and reality is on the way especially when you know what are installed for you for this part of the semester because you haven't been very productive for the past 3 semesters. Now, piling up like mountains are all my exams that I need to finish before next month. That would sound possible to some but to me...it is like almost..cannot. I don't know. Maybe I can find a helper to help me to mark or something. Maybe...maybe. I dunno. I need some elves. Who can help me to find some elves to help me out in marking. I need them.

Life is like a box of chocolate. that's what i wanted to say. somtimes you're up, sometimes you're down. for this week, life is nice. why you might ask? well, holiday is around the corner. thats for a start where i can just sit back and relax without any students to teach although i have tons of projects to mark which i have left on the shelves to collect dust a very long time oledi. yeah. hahahaha...

then...my desktop is back. yeah...illegal downloading of sentai...here i come. i can download and watch Boukenger already. hmm...let me seach the internet to find a picture. Lol....college is boring. cannot even load a picture in it. block all the pop outs. anyhow, never google for boukenger and you'll find one.

with my desktop and the TM Net guy coming with my modem, it means i can do the illegal downloading by today. that should be super fun. i have missed that show for a long time. well...i was born in that era. you couldn't just ask me not to love it. that era was filled with masked hero and the one that i love the most is still masked rider RX. classic man. well...not that anime is not nice, i still like naruto just that i love masked hero more especially the ones that have a robot in it like the sentai series. yeah...

the alst but not least, my mentees are slowly becoming angels again. at least to the extend not to talk and do all the homework when i teach although there's an amount of them who sleeps in the class. but then knowing my principles, if you don't want to learn, i cannot help you much. if you approach me, i am more than happy to extend the open arm.

ah...life is so much better.

oh, i have forgot that i have an observation on wednesday and the boss said that... not bad. got improvement. man, i am so happy. that also thanks to the kids for listening although they have a physics class after mine. i thought i was going to be dead because there's a physic there but thanks to my G11, they didn't should say a big thank you to them. for someone who reads my blog frequently, say thank you for me ah.

oh yeah...should say something to pearl too...if you really don't want people to hate you, then you need to give that person the respect. if you do, people will give it back to you. so...thats part of life. so...cheer up ya pearl. you'll always be my darling sister like everyone else. i don't hate my l'l brothers and sisters. :)

CHEERS.

My life is broken...

My life has been so sad lately. Nothing fun is ever happening in my life. Instead, problems started to visit me one by one. Must be one at a time then. Can't it come at one short so that my life won't be that bad. Haih...everyday..i put on mask and walked around the world. The world doesn't know I am sad and the world doesn't need to know. The world is not in any position to have to know. The world has its own problem to worry about rather than me. I am so depressed. Not ever in my life when I couldnt find the piece of puzzle that I am looking for to fit into the picture. I couldn't find it and I know that I need to find it soon before the piece is really lost forever.

I am sad...am very sad...and I can tell you why. It all started last week when my desktop has decided to fail me by not detecting my monitor when actually my monitor works. Nevermind about that, my brother has promised that he'll look for the problem and therefore my desktop is in kampar now. Then, on wednesday, disaster struck again when my notebook has failed my when it could be switched on. ah....I really felt like crying at that time. Not two computer in a row. I am really depressed as I don't know what else to do. My life without a computer to play is so boring. I have been sitting quietly in the house doing all the housework for now. So sad.

The reason why i need the computer is also because things hasn't been getting better as time passes by. My mentees are slowing turning into little monsters. I just don't know how to help them anymore when they don't want to help themselves. Playing videogame in the class, chatting happily there, not doing a single work that has been given to them. I really feel like giving up until Lalitha has told me something. That something that has made me realise that I haven't been fair to some of the minorities in the class again. So...i have devised a plan aand i really hope that this plan will work. i just don;t know.

the last thing that I am unhappy about is that not only i have difficulties in controling my mentees, i also have problem of controlling my extra hours. Man...why can't students nowadays just behave like some students. why they have to be a pest when they can be angels. I just wonder.

(this piece is written by my heart and sorry as i have not checked my own writing. Be prepare for lots of mistakes.)

Presentation (part 2)

This is the 2nd part of the submission.

Presentation

Day 3 - Wonders

Day 1 & 2: Gang
I think most people would have cursed me to die like nobody's buiness by now. But what to do...my friend's comp has dies for the past 2 weeks so I cannot bring my laptop back from PJ as he needs to use at times. Now that I have it back, i can upload the 2nd version then. Enjoy. (Pictures say louder than words)

Training

Well...sorro for the updates on the presentation. I think I'll do it later when I go back to the house as I don't have any pictures to put it from the office. The reason why is simple. Saturday, and I am sitting in the office checking my mail. It is lunch time now. Just had my heavy lunch at the cafe and now I am sadly waiting for my training to come. I have another 25 minutes to go as it starts at 1.30pm. Sad isn't it. Life in a way that we have to always upgrade ourselves for the sake of our work. Nah...not that it is really a bad thing, it just that..it's Saturday and I have to be here until 3.00 pm. That means that my Saturday is completely gone by the time I would have finished my training. The only time left is for me to go to the Pasar Malam tonight at my place. Haih life is such. If I have my camera with me, then I can take a picture of all the lecturers here who are in the training with me on how to relect on our teaching. Yup...we have to reflect on our teaching...or must we?

Alamak

this is leland in his thinking mode. think he has forgotten something important.
see that man behind the door, he's Kai Siang. Peeping tom.
this is lalitha in her 'huh, what cha say?'
Everybody looked left...hehehehe...G11 clan number 1
oh! the S5 clan 3 family.


Oh shit, it has been like how long since i have an update. busy, busy. that's all i have to say. this second semester has never been easy for me. other than finding the stuffs hard to teach, i find it quite boring too. thank god there's loads of exams in it but that will mean more paper work to mark. as if i don't have enough now. uni also started this week and man my lecturer was the nost boring one. i nearly feel asleep in the class although the class was only 1 hour. this had reminded me on how boring that lecturer had been during my under-grad. ugh...anyhow..got something to lighten you up. i have finally been able to get all the presentation photos in place. some funny ones, some cutes ones and some...i dunno. hm...the only problem is...how to upload everything. i am a dummy in uploading stuffs for now as this is my first attempt. stef had given me the ideas before but now i have completely lost it. hmm...lets try...

Presentaion...

Today was my students' acting for some role play. Instead of frowning at them, I ended up laughing all the way through. It was not their acting that was hillarious but more of their blunders and their 'blurness'. Man, at times, I can really award these kids with a super blur award. Not only that they didn't come prepare enough, they end up making all the hillarious scene. There was a group of students of mine that actually spoke the wrong lines. Imagine how blur they were. Not only that, they made me even more confused with the story itself as if I was not blur enough. The only sad part was that I didn't bring any camera and therefore, I could not capture all the moment of laughter for the class. Hmm...maybe I should contact one of the students to get it so that I could post it here for people to enjoy their beautiful masterpiece. LOL!!! Haih...and who says that literature are supposed to be boring. It takes the students creativity to make it fun.

Holiday is over...

I am so sad. The holiday 'boh liao' loh. Have to wait until August until I can get another one. Haih!!! I am so tired. After two weeks of waking up late, sleeping for almost 8 to 9 hours has turned me from a monster back into a human being. But than, nothing last forever. Now, back at work, it feels so torturous to wake up at 6.30 am sleeping for only 5.5 to 6 hours a day. I am more than a zombie. I wonder how my students can tahan for sleeping for only 2 hours because they are dying to watch the most talked about FIFA. Anyhow, I just don't really understand what is the entire fuss about world cup. Is it that nice to see 11 men chasing after a small, tiny, little, and mini white and black ball? Hmm...maybe its a typical guy thing or it is something that amuse people because it only happens every four years. I just don't know. I only know I don't have the passopn for football as my PA teacher last time killed that passion when we had football for two years for every PA class that we had. Euww.... That is the reason why I was never been exposed to any other sports too but football. Sad isn't it, but at least I am happy about one thing as during the football match, I would always be the defender and people don't really kick the balls towards me as they would be happy attacking each other on the center. Hehehehe.... Well, I have another 15 minutes to go before my last class at 2pm. i just hope that this people don't fall asleep because of last night's match. Hail...FIFA!

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Memories

Memory came and gave me a visit yesterday. Memory gave me a happy times yesterday. But sad enough, memory was not there to stay. I went to my mentees BBQ's party yesterday as a celebration for finishing their exam and also for throwing Nicky a party before he joins the Flying Academy. That event itself has brought back my memory of the days when we would do a BBQ with everyone with all students who stayed at TTDI, Batu Tiga. Haih. Those were the memories that has flooded me with joy of seeing my friends in front of my eyes. Especially my chief chef...Michael Chang who used to cook all the delicious dinner to me. My student, Khai Siang, has a strong resemblance of him. Big and very good in cooking. Hmm...I could still taste his potato chicken which was like superb. He has taught me how to do it but as usual, masuk kiri, keluar kanan when we don't practise it.

Memory came and gave me a visit today. While I was writing this, I remembered the time when we would have BBQ in Pantai Hillpark, then was my friend's sister's rented condo but now is my rented condo, where we would have parties for all the birthday boys and girls there. We would laugh and laugh and laugh and the best of all, swim in the swimming pool in the middle of 12 in the morning. That was fun until the Uncle Guard came along to shoo us off. Ah...those were the days. The days when we were crazy enough to do all this stuffs. Now...everyone is so busy. Everyone is flying here and there. Everyone is so tight down with responsibility that life has become quite dull.

Thank you for giving me the chance to remember. The time where I once have that memory in my head.

Exam...for my kids

Exam is coming but it is not for me. My kids are having the exam next week and this means that I won't be teaching. Yeah...holiday for now although we have to invigilate but hey...still no teaching for now until they have finished the exam. Once the exam has finished, then that's it. Marking like some mad fellow. HAih...life is so predictable. I wonder where is the edge that I am looking for is with. I would love one day to be able to do nothing but just relax and daze around doing practically nothing. Yeah! That would be the day.

I am a failure

It has been a week and all I did for the past one week was playing video game, going shopping and meeting my friends for lunch. I am a failure. One week has passed and I haven't even marked a single test paper. I am a failure.

Are teachers...not human?

I sometimes wonder what goes in those little kids head. I have realy confirmed one thing, Indonesian rich kids are far better than Malaysian attitude problem kids. Well...i know that it doesn't apply to all...but the small samples are big enough to kill the population.

I never knew that teaching is so hard. Not only that it is hard to prepare the lesson as we are left alone on our own, I also have to face the students' wants and needs. Hey, I am also a human being and this is my first semester in such a tiring place. But who could understand, all people expect is the best out of you. The boss said, we pay you RM 2+++ permonth and expect me to make wonders out of a bunch of monkeys (although it only applies to a handful). Then the students expect me to be beautiful and wonderful teacher by paying the college thousands of RM but hello, I don't get all those money. I only get a portion. The college gets the rest. If not, will you think that my college is ever gonna be that big?

So...I wanna make a change. Like Dr. Jackll to Mr. Hyde. If you don't like my good side, then see the bad side of me. Then don't complain that I don't like this teacher because he's bad. Well, you people don't want to accept the good side that is a bit cacat here and there, then except the bad side that is a bit cacat here and there. But at least, that side is cruel. YEAH!!!

Hello Reality...OUCH!

As I have seen heaven passing by, I can see reality floating back into my world. The world where there are 2XX essays and formal letter to be commented. I an fainting. Life in SAM is such a bore at times. Full of marking and nothing else but that. Yeah they said that it is always easier to give people essay to write during class hour and the students hated it but have they ever wonder that they are the one who are not suffering the most. We are. Now stand on my table is a total of 232 peices of writing that I have to mark and I really don't know will I be ever able to finish it on time before the weekends arrive as I have plans to torture my students next week. Hehehehehe....

Life works in such a way. Anyhow, last week itself was also not a week for me. I got my evaluation form back and to tell you the truth, it was such a demotivating feedback from the students. But like they say, you can't please everyone. Some of the comment I find it true that I am harsh at times, emotional and whatever but hey I am a human being. They too am emotional and who to blame when they were. Nobody. Hmmph...But than, this was not the worse part. Some comments are generally hillarious for a start and some are just not true. If they think that they want a perfect teacher, then they go and teach themselves lah. No wonder our education system is so bad. Who has the heart to teach BRATS/COMPLAINER like that. But then, it seems that it was a common thing for every teacher. So...there's no point of me being irrational and emotional at times. The next thing I ever want to do after mid-term is to change as according to the new action plan since some clowns have commented that I:

1) am funny and I should be a clown. Action: should be more boring then. don't blame me then that the class is boring ever again since some of you ask for it.
2) speak in British English. Action: should speak more in Manglish and let my kids die on their own since they commented that I speak British English. I wonder if I should pick up some Australian English and let them die faster.

I really don't know lah. I love most of them and almost everyone of them but the comments made have to be retrified and in order for me to do so, I have to change then. So kids whom I love, sorry that I might have to be an evil wizard when you all come back from you're holiday then. If you ever want to blame, blame on those clowns whom have made the comments that are not quite true.

p/s: the one that are quite true, I'll try my very best to change.

I can see heaven

Ah...the birds are singing, the flowers are dancing and the bees are buzzing. These are the sounds that are currently stuck to my head. Peace at last or at least that's what I want to feel. Life has been peaceful once again in the city of Kuala Lumpur (that's my definition). No more hassle (although I have thousands of other stuffs that I need to do). Ah...enjoy the breeze.

Another two more days, another two more days, and my students are going to hand up their Investigative studies and that will indicate the end of their torture and mine. Imagine life without research. It's so much fun as there's nothing to it and nothing can beat it as life with research is full of craps. It's fun to do it but it is definately not fun to teach it when you have tons of eager beaver who just want to out smart each other and not doing it for the art of loving it. That's the main problem now. Life of teaching research is . Really cannot stand it liao. Three more days. Three more days I tell you and I will be free. Free from all these problematic work.

Ah...life is a bliss. The church bell is ringing in my head. The smell of flowers blooming and the sensation of the wind blowing towards me.

(the reality is the sound of Ms. Kwa typing her chemistry chapter 2 notes, the smell of of food some where and the air cond blowing in the staff room. Yeah...imagination rules over everything. It's just that it is too early to day dream.)

It is finally over...for now

Ah...it was a sight of relief for Ah Kau. After weeks and weeks of looking at the students' so called research work (which many of them plagarize), Ah Kau has a sight of relief for now. He knew that next week, he is going to collect all those research project again as next is submission day but who cares, he needs the break for now. He couldn't stand most of his students work. Especially the ones that has decided to take the easy way out. Well, not really couldn't stand it as he knows that if the students copy directly from the source, he can give them a zero without fail even if it is for one paragraph. But what to do, his students think that he is stupid and doesn't come with a brain to know whether which sentence belongs to them and which sentence does not. Anyhow, it was all over. All the marking has finished and there are nothing much to do for now. He just want to sit back today, relax his mind and slowly falls asleep to find 'chau kong' daughter. The wonder, beautiful and pretty girl friends or his in his dream...! Ah....that is such a nice thing to do for now. To sleep and to relax.

Help...

Help...i need help. all the marking is killing me. i need help. all the research work are killing me. help....i need help...i need help before i see hell. i NEEEEEEDDDDDD HEEEELLLLPPPP!!!!!!!!

A story about the Taiwan Sausage

My friends (Alex, Ginny and Jason) and I went to Asia Cafe yesterday for dinner after our trip to Sunway Pyramid to meet up with my friend who sells insurance. Well...basically he was telling me about an insurance plan that I had known from my other insurance friend long time ago. Anyhow, after the two hours of discussion, which I was glad it was over, we went shopping at Sunway before we headed out for dinner. Upon reaching Asia Cafe, where I parked near to the market which smelled like dead chicken, we walked down the road to Asia Cafe. We happily sat in the middle of the open air, ordered our drinks before we went on our seperate way to order the food. First I ordered the Korean dish for myself before I helped Jason to order the Spicy Pork noddle for him. After ordering the noodle for him, I walked back towards our place when I saw this Taiwan Sausage stall. It was so tempting that I decided to buy it. So happily I ordered four sausages (there were four of us) with these flavors. Extra Spicy, Medium Spicy, Black Pepper and BBQ sauce. I had the black pepper which was delicious and I gave the rest to my friends. The next thing I knew when they ate the sausage was that Ginny complained that it was spicy. She said: The medium spicy sausage was hot and I was like...nah...it must be ok. I tried it and I started cursing. Imagine, the medium spicy was hot....what would happen to the extra spicy?
You got that right. My friend, Jason, cried eating that sausage. (For spicy lovers, try the taiwan sausage in Asia Cafe....hot like gila man.) I gave him the suggestion of dipping his sausage in my friends unwanted soup and guess what? It made it worse. He cried further more. Jason cursed me like mad for asking him to do so but we had a good laugh when my other friend, Alex, started his philosophy of torturing ourselves when we had spicy food lah and blah blah blah. He could go on forever as you know....we all are lecturers and we are born with the ability to nag. :)

Decision made that leads to disaster...

i have received a letter a few weeks ago but i dare not read it. the name haunt me like the past is very near to me. even when i clicked on that letter, i never give it a real thought until today. with the feeling that i am feeling now, i am completely lost. have i made a good decision 2 years ago when i have decided to leave her. looking at her email and replying her, i felt some lonely hollow in my heart. it feels heavy as if i amissed something. what is it, you asked? I dunno know. i really dunno. I only know that my heart is lonely now. very lonely. i think this is what you called the after effect of your first love. i miss her. i miss the time that we have spent together but i am also the one who are at fault to forgo everything. i don't know. i am at an issue at that time but i never do want to tell her what is it. i just don't know how to tell her. even now...i am confused. i am just...confused.

me heart feels heavy. my heart feels heavy. i am at lost. i am at lost. looking at her email...i am sad. a sense of regret perhaps? i don't know. i really don'y know. how to make it go away. i ahve been running away from the problem for far too long. should i tell her the reason why i broke off with her in the first place. but what the use? she's no longer in malaysia. she's never a malaysian. never am and god knows maybe never will. i am lsot....lost in the ocean of regret.

love...love...something that cupid loves to play with. something that god forbids but eventually give it a green light. this is what we call first love. and this is what i call my first love.

Issue Analysis

A week has passed by with me having the exam with my students on issue analysis on capital punishment and to tell you the truth, i am getting bored. this is killing me like mad. day in and day out, i have to sit there listening for the same stuffs for almost 4 hours in a day. same points given, same ellaborations given but different people. i have realised that i have also turning into a sour pot. penalising the students for every mistakes that they have made because they should have been more prepared by now. but then in reality, they are not. i wonder why the students here love to take English for granted. One of these days esp during the final, they will know that it'll be tougher than they thought as English is no longer English but English with a skill to do.

Issue analysis...this time, it is really getting on to my nerves. I have another week to go before i can really teach and i am dreaming by now...that i am teaching. issue analysis....isssue annnaaalllllyyysisisisisisis....

Mphensmsepsjsns....

It has been a week since I last update this blog. I really don't know where to start. A lot has happened since then. I have gone through Charity Drive day, Cheng Beng day and my students' issue analysis exam. Hmm...so where should I begin. I think that I should begin starting from Charity Drive.

Well...charity drive is fun but tiring. that day itself was a mess. Imagine me spending RM50 for all the stuffs that I have bought for that day. I think that I have spent more than that if I look at the entire amount that I have spent before that. No wonder I am suddenly so broke. Overspent lah. Anyhow, on that day...it was fun. I now have learnt the art of making ice blended with pearls. Hahahahahaha...say only as I only helped them to blend the ice with the juices. Hehehehehe.....I took a lot of pictures of my S5 class too but I don't have it with me now. I haven't upload any onto the computer now. Plus, I am in the office now. So...no pictures. Maybe I'll put when I get back to my house later today. Anyhow...my class made around 500 plus all thanks to Stef's contribution of bagging her parents to donate RM200. If not, we will not be able to make any profit at all. But then, I am impressed that we can sell as much as RM 500 only by doing ice-blended. I must say...I am really impressed by the effort done. To show you all their artwork...you must wait for the photo. XD

Cheng Beng day is torturous but then it's only once a year. This year...none of my relatives came to the grave. A bunch of no good uncles and aunties huh. Left only my dad, my cousin bro and me who have climbed the hill to pray for our ancestors. All the rest, they didn;t even show up. How good can they be? Anyhow, it was tiring but it was good for my health...in a way coz I haven't been exercising for far too long. It took us almost 3 hours to complete 5 graves. We went mountain climbing to get to my great grand dad's grave coz that's my dad's grand dad. Then we moved to grand dad and grand mom place which is so far from my great grand dad and we end the tour by going to my 5th uncle's grave who died during WW2. Sad to tell you that I don't even know who's my 5th Uncle until now. My 5th uncle has been shifted to the pagoda temple and therefore it was easy. The only thing was that I got burned thanks to some stupid aunty who put a joss stick in the middle of her chicken. When I have burned myself, only then I realised that there's a joss stick there. Boohoo....(I curse like nobody business. Just hope that it's the aunty who was standing next to me). What kind of people is that lah. They know it's man mount man sea that day and they still want to do that. Put me through the pain only.

Anyhow....by today...I am still exhausted. Very tired indeed my eyes still look like Panda bear. :P

I am at the staffroom. My neighbour is Mr. Tsung. Happily doing his notes for his physics. He's a physics teacher. A good one too. My neighbour is Mr. Tsung. The back of me is Ms. Prem. An ESL teacher who has just walked away to the toilet. She seems to be very busy.

I am Kevin. It seems that I am writing rubbish. Nothing to do? Nope. I have plenty. I still have my assignment to do but I made a mistake and now I have to redo everything all over again. Fun, you said. No it is not. I am in a depression mode now. Why did I made that silly mistake that cost me the whole hour. Now, I don't feel like doing it cause I don't know how. I need to call for help but I can't. I don't have credit in my phone mah. What to do. Boil soup so much everyday. Wahahahahaha....as if lah it is true.

My phone got no credit and I don't know how to do my assignment. On top of that, I hvae a class in 15 minutes time. No time to do what I wish to do. Might as well write my blog.

My name is Kevin. My neighbour is Tsung and at my back is no one. Prem has left the scene. I am in the SAM staffroom.

The meaning of weekend

I wonder what is the real meaning of a weekend when you're so busy that it doesn't even look like one. A weekend is supposed to be days when we can sit down and relax. Not when we have to run errands like nobody business. I had planned earlier that yesterday was supposed to be the day where I would do my final 2 assignments for this semester and I ended up doind nothing. I woke up really early to send my brother to the airport and end the rest of the morning by sending my dad to the bus station. Then be the time I reached home it was already 2.30 pm and I took a nap. Before I knew what was happening, it was already 3.30 pm and I had to fetch my friend to go to PJ for a swim at 4.30pm. Swim and dinner were what we had yesterday. We also watched Final Destination 2. Before we realised, it was 11.30 pm and we had decided to go home. I sent my other friend back to PJ while the friend that I had picked up was sent by the girlfriend. That's the end of yesterday. now, I have just woekn up and not in the mood to do my work. I have tons to do as I have not done both the outline for my kids, marked their introduction and also do my own assignment. Oh...someone please help.

No more exam...peace at last

It is the time of the year when I can finally relax. Exam is over and there's nothing else to do except for handling in two more assignment that cost me lots of attention but that can wait. I am so tired. The after effects of marking students paper until wee hours. well...to tell you the truth. I just mark. Giving marks as high as i could based on the outline. I don't know if they know. Well...they should know it themselves too whether they really put an effort into doing the assignment or they just do it to make me happy. I just don't know. Anyhow, the outcome for certain classes are good (only to those that listens to me). At least they understand the concepts that in ESL...your English are almost useless if you cannot give me what I want. Skills is more important than your language. Show me that you can do what I want you to do and I show you that you're great. Give me nothing of the above, and I will give you something like nothing in the above. Aii...when lah my students will learn not to be so proud of their English.

Melaka & PD

The trip was the best trip ever. Never in my life that eating in Melaka was damn cheap. Imagine spending RM 20 on food consisted of Chicken & Rice Ball, Cendol and Nyonya Laksa & Satay Celup. Man, it was delicious.

The journey started from KL from 11 am although it was supposed to be 10 am. My friends got stuck in their offices and we were running late. By the time they arrived at my house, it was already 10.30 am. So, when we picked up the last passenger, it was already 11 am. Any how, it took us 2 hours to reach Melaka and when we got there, we had a makan frenzy. We first had out Chicken Rice before we had a little walk at Jonker Walk. Then in between 1 to 2 hours from lunch, we headed down to have cendol and nyonya laksa. After that trip to the cendol, we headed down to the Coxodile Farm which bored me to the max because all they ever have are crocodiles. XD in short, it was boring. After the trip there, we headed back to jonker walk and had satay celup. Not the best one in the town but who cares. After eating, we had a walk at jonkew walk. Ah...the nice melaka pasar malam. Didnt buy anything though as it was expensive. After the walk, that indicated that it was time for PD and we headed down to PD.

The journey to PD was scary thanks to my bro. He told me that my uncle has booked a place for us in one of the bungalo near to Linggi and in return it was actually futher away from Linggi. We ended up driving about 30 minues before we reached out destination. The road was scary as there was no street light at all along the way and my friend was not the best driver in the town at night. Has asked him to let me drive but he said ok(Stubborn as usual. :P). Once we reached there, there was a sight of relief from him. We had our bath and before we knew what was happening, we had a barbeque. We had chicken and stuffs again. (Imagine the amount of food that I consumed that day. ADOI!). After eating, we KO completely uintil the next morning where we headed back after turning to the beach for a swim. I, as usual, didnt bring anything with me and so I ended have to look after my nephew.

And so,,,thats the ending of my trip. Cause me a lot of energy though and I am still tired from it. :P so...just write what i intend to write only.

Dear Bloggie

Dear Bloggie I want to talk to you again,
Coz, I havent anything since,
Coz I have been busy,
With my work, I have been busy,
To hand up assignment,
Dear Bloggie, How are you today,
I just want to say,
I am going to PD,
I am going to melaka,
I want my holiday,
I want my fun,
Dear bloggie, please pray for me today,
I dont want it to rain...,
coz i want to play,
i want to play,
visit all the places,
eat all the food.
dear bloggie.... (Sing according to M2M, dear diary)

i am going to miss you. update you later. chiao.

Am I a failure....

Yesterday. Yesterday. Yesyerday. Why yesterday must come? Why can't I go on living with a live without yesterday. I had my break down but why must it happened to me. Why me? Why only me? I don't know. My life has been in a chaos since yesterday. Never in a mood for anything that I want it to be (Or at least I can force my way through). It's my life anyway and I have to leave my life the way that I want it to be to a certain extend.

Yesterday exam was a failure. It was really a failure. My life has been in a total chaos. I think my paper is coming to an end. It was the question fault. It was the question fault...it...no...no...no...was it...was it...was it my fault for not studying hard enough? How couldI even let myself to attempt a question that I didn't have the answer for. I don't know. I really don't know. I just want the marks. I just want the marks. I just...want...the...marks. It was a 15-marks question over the overall of 30- marks. That was the reason. Yes! That was the reason. That was the reason why I attempted that question. That was it. That was it. That was it.

Exam...

Exam is tomorrow and what have I been doing. Nothing. Nothing at all. I haven't even started reading. I am going to die soon. Lots of things to study. Dunno where I have put all the tips for the mid-test...how to survive? Haih...

I think I am getting lazier by day. Maybe this is because I have been studying for too long. Non-Stop. From UPSR to PMR to SPM to PSA to UPM to UPM. So many years of studying have finally tired me down. Working and doing my studies is another reason. I wanna give up. I wanna say no. But I know, people around me will push me through. Maybe I should stop for a semester before I proceed. Maybe I should just continue and hopefully finished everything by this year. I dunno. I dunno. I dunno. I dun...no....

I HAVE NO IDEA!

Those were my memories, give it back.

Wah...my first mid-test is around the corner. Now I have to study although I never did any study yet in the first place. I hate mid-test. I hate test. But I like making one though. Life as a student is no fun at all when you're not a full time student. Wish I could go back to the good old days when all I do is just to sit and study while I had a table full of chocolates, twisties barbeque flavour (my fav at that time and now is jigs corn stick peri peri chili flavour) and a can of 100 plus. Man those were the days. The days when I could eat and never grew fat. As the oldie songs sings...'those were the days my friend, we thought it never ends, we sing and dance forever and will be...', those were the days.

Now, I am fat. Not too fat but fat enough for my size. Need to cut down on this lah, on that lah. Man...it's tough of being old. :( No force to make myself go slim whenever I want it to. Enough said. I am supposed to talk about exam. Exam. Exam. My students is having an English exam at the same day as I am having my assessment exam. For real...yup. For real. It's a fact and nothing but the truth. Having an exam on the same day as my students. Imagine how lucky we can be. Anyway... I have to study. Have to study. Have to study. Goh san, ganbatte kudasai ne.

I wanna sleep...

Help! Help! I need my sleep. I need my sleep. My brother has gone to Singapore leaving me no choice but to go back to Cheras to sleep to accompany my mother. That means that I have to wake up earlier than it supposed to be. BooHoo! No fun. I am so sleepy and so tired. I also have my master class later in the evening. Help...Help.... I need my princess in shinning armour. Hehehehehe...wish lah. Wish lah. I dunno why my brother has suddenly decided to go to Singapore. Mom said that he'll be there only for a few days. Wish lah it is true or else I'll suffer from my eternal sleep. WHAT? I am a piggy mah. Born to be lazy. Born to be sleepy. Zzz..... YAWN!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday once more....

Ah...yesterday. The sound of the singer singing in my head...making feel like puking; dizzy; and euww.... Yesterday went to Tiffin to have my dessert there after a heavy dinner at Tropicana for seafood. Cheap seafood though. Anyway...the excitement lies in Tiffin, Starhill. Never in my life I have sit in a Cafe ala Pub for more than 3 hours listening to a bunch of singers who cannot sing. Man...her singing is way off. Not that her voice is not nice...it's just that we couldn't understand what she was singing most of the time. Regardless of it, we like the place. IT's beautiful. With scenery overlooking the KLCC, it a splendour. The high sofa, the nice dark lighting. Man it is powderful.

My Uni freiends and I has spent a total of 2.5 hours there and the reason we left that place was because we cannot listen anymore to the singing by the singers there. It's so boring and sentimental to the maximun. Not even once (got once onlylah) that they sing any upbeat songs or current songs. Their song is so slow and sleepy. well...people still enjoy it. What the heck. MAybe they're there to drink their wine and eat their cakes and not listening to what she's singing like most of time of what we did. I dunno. I just feel like complaining.

To anyone out there, if you ever go to tiffin. make sure that they have a nice set of singers. not only a group with one singer. a bit overdose is not good you know.

CHEERS.

It's Something Funny

Day : Wednesday Time : 7.00 PM Cast : Me Situation : Driving in MRR 2 to my aunt's house Story : The time was 6ish to 7 pm. I was happily driving home from uni. Class had just ended and now I was driving to my aunt's place to have my dinner there. Bro had told me that they had gone to aunt's place as sis was not working. Driving happily and listening to Mix.Fm, suddenly I had a call. It was from an unknown number, 012333.... Forgotten the rest of the number. Anyway...i picked up the phone. It was a lady's voice and as usual i said 'hello;. She replied. Then the next thing i knew was that she asked me where was i heading to? I happily replied going to my aunt's place for dinner and she said, 'Going there for dinner is it'?. I, upon hearing this, replied yes. Then she asked, 'where do your aunt stay?' I then replied, 'Taman Lembah Maju. Meeting up with my mom there.' She replied, 'Oh....going for home cook food.' I said, ' Yup.' The next thing i know, she asked me this question, 'Eh...do you have April's number? you know the girl that we have worked for before in Carlsberg?'. With that question, that was when i realised, she's not my student and I said, 'eh, i think you have the wrong number. I don't know who april in carlsberg is'. Then, shocked, she said, 'Oh....I think i did call the wrong number. Sorry.' Eh...so...you're going to your aunt's place for dinner is it?' I replied puzzlely, 'Ya. Am driving there now.' She then said, 'Oh....ok. Eh...sorry about the wrong number. Bye.' I replied, 'Bye'. If you think that this is the end...guess again. Later on in the night...she called again. This time I picked up the phone and said, 'Eh..miss...i think you have the wrong number again.' Then she said, 'I am not sure. I have this number stored in my phone. Are you sure you're not Alvin.' I told her, 'nope, I am not Alvin but I am kevin.' She then said, 'Kelvin...hm....what do you do for a living?' I told her, 'I am a lecturer. i teach. the reason i picked up the phone was because i thought that you're one of my student.' She replied, 'Oh..so you're a lecturer. Sure you're not the Alvin that I have met in 'the beach'?' I was like, 'What beach? don't know where is it.' She said, 'Sure.' I replied, 'Yes'. She then finally said, 'Oh...ok. IF it is like that, it means i have the wrong number. Sorry to disturb you then. BYe.' I said my bye then. This is to me the most hillarious time that I ever had with a stranger. I have talked to her for almost 5 minutes answering all her question without even knowing that she was not my friend. Aiyo.....

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Observation

I had an observation today and it is over for now. Life is slowly going back to normal where I can breathe normally, life normally and laugh normally. This observation is the scariest observation that I had so far but things are better than I had expected. Students are co-orperative except for a few but it shouldn't be a problem. It's part and parcel of being a lecturer. Life is normal. I can breathe normally now. I am actually waiting for my last class at 2:00 pm and after that, I am going to sleep. I need my sleep. I need my sleep. I am tired. I need a good rest. But hey...I got a master class afterward. Shoot! Shoot! aiyo....this is lame....this is lame....this is lame....this is not me in my writing. My mind is blank. My mind is blank. My mind is blank. Blaaaaank.....! Blaaaaaaaannnnnkkkkkkk!!!!!!!! Blannnnnnnkkkkkkkkkkke!

ervatio

Update 2: Birthday

This year's birthday was extremely wonderful. Never in my life I have so many wonderful blessing for a day. (For those who's reading my blog and understand what I have meant, Thank you). A lot of people especially my students both ex and now have given me such wonderful blessing that I was speechless. I don't want to be a lunatic for this post in respect to them who had wished me well. That day went crazy both at work and after work. At work, most of the students sang me a birthday song which I was very malufying about. Aiyo...so old still got people to sing me a song. But overall, it was very nice. I felt special. For that day only lah. Anyhow, the cakes that they bought was nice. One thing for sure was that how come they know it was my birthday? Must be that friendster thinggy. Aiyo.... Anyhow, at work it was fun but at dinner it was superb. Had Manhattan Fish Shop for dinner. Love the squid there but the squid and the amount of food portion in Mid-Valey is sad. If I had known, I would have gone to KLCC or Bandar Utama for it. At least those places are worth for money. NOt like the one in Mid Valey which was a bit sad. Food also not that nice one. No wonder the one in Mid-Valey doesn't have much customers as compared to the rest. Anyhow...try it. I love the cheese topping. Before dinner, I have received a set of Naruto miniature from my friend. Wow...it was the best gifts ever. There's four of them. One which I don't even know who the hell he is as I have not downloaded the Anime from the net yet. Oh...that reminds me. I have to get it from Hamilton today. Yeah...can boil anime today. yeah...yeah...!

Update 1: New Year

This Chinese New Year is the worst that I have ever experienced. Man, was it boring. There's nothing much to do in Perak. All I did was eat, sleep in an air-cond room and play my trusty old PS 1 (hehehehe...old faithful). I have to replay most of the game that I have finished but hey...at least I have some things to do. Anyhow, life has been boring. It was not thatI don't have things to do but it was just that the stuffs that I need to do was so boring. Could kill myself thinking that I have to do all of those things during CNY but sadly...life comes in a way that I have been left without a choice. Come to think of it now...eeuu...I did my presentation for my Master class during the break. hahahahahahaha....

One thing for sure that I am not complaining is that I got angpaus. Yeah...not as much as I have anticipated. Dad said that he didn't wanna give me one as I am not a baby anymore. Ceh...so he said what mom has given is enough. SOB! RM 50 lesser. hehehehe...but hey...at least I can still get RM 300 out of it. Not that I could spend it. Need it just to pay my Credit Card. WARNING for those out there. Unless you have a very high disciplined, never own a credit card. hahahahaha...or else you'll be like me...finding ways to pay them back. heheheheheheheehehehe..... Spend a lot on this new year as there's lots of stuffs to buy. New clothes, new shoes and even new socks. Hai...being a grown up is so much not fun. Enjoy the moment while I was still a little boy and without any worries on my mind. I wanna be a teenager again. Can or not???

Anyhow, CNY no matter how bad it is, it is still fun in a way. At least I met old teacher (Since Form 1), Uni friends, Aunts and Uncles and last but not least, went to Cameron. Talking about Cameron...thats not a good place to be in during CNY. Man it was full of homo sapien for one thing. Other than that, it was also colder than Genting. It seems that when the low land is hot, the high land is like ice mountation and living in my brother's dirty appartment is not helping at all. I end up sleepless the whole night feeling as if i can be frozen any time soon. But then...i still enjoy it in a way. Hahahahaha....

CNY...what else to talk about it...nothing much. Oh yeah....my students did give me a link to their blog but i have lost that link. G5...can you give me your links again. I don't know how to put the link in but at least I know that people can read it. hehehehehe...

well... thats part 1:CNY. I'll write my part 2: Birthday later today during lunch. I hope.

The Battle Continues

One week has passed and I am still surviving. Never know that working is Taylors as a newbie is harder than working in anywhere else. I have been creating lesson plan for the past one week and I am supposed to do it later. But then...it's a responsibility. I have to survive. The training at Saturday was more fun than I expected it to be. Thought that it was going to be boring but hey...Dr. Irene is one cool presenter. Glad to have her as the main one. Saturday...ah.......

A week has passed. Students is a bliss. Never in my life I found such nice angels who listen. Hehehe..used to have alot but never seen a bunch who is better than the last bunch. Now I have to work my butt even more than before. I wonder what is their mind been thinking most of the time. I need an update. I need an update.

Teaching has never been so much fun. They are really a bliss. One thing that I have failed them though is that I still can't remember their names well enough. Maybe it is time for me to call names instead to have the class rep to do it for me. I need to know them better than just their face. It's always rude not to know people. It's always nice to know people's name. Name...name....

I realy don't know what to write at the moment. Quite blank actually. Can't think straight. Maybe...maybe...i should write it tomorrow when my mind is less clouded. Yeah...maybe i should do so...

The Beginning of the Story

Friendster is out. Blogger is in. I am here. This is me. Life is at a ever changing pace. One moment I am here, the other moment I am not. I have moved. To a better place but I am a bit scared. Don't really know why. People here are slightly different. Maybe it is because I am not used to sit with a very big bunch of people. Everyone is nice. That's when the problem starts. They are nice to me and they know me. The only problem now is that i don't really know them that well. Some I don't even know what are called. I nod my head most of my time to indicate that I acknowledge them. What to do....I am only here for four days. It is not even a week. I am so used to the life stye in LUCT that I find it a bit hard to accept certain things that are so unfamiliar. My body need some readjustment but I just don't know when it'll happen. My body is not really responding to the way that I want it to be. Maybe it is because I am stressing my body to the maximum. Waking up as early as 6.00 am is not helping my body at all. It is tired. It keeps on telling me but what can I do. I want to stop to but I know I have to continue with my life. A life to struggle in this life. I have an a news. A news that I would like to share to the rest of the world. I have an observation. An observation when I am only here for 2 weeks. Man...am I scared. I am scared. Too scared and too soon. I am scared. I am scared. My mind keeps on telling me that. I just don't know what to do as i really have no idea what should I do. I just got the news today and it is already clouding my mind. Am I being paranoid? Hope I am not. But what is that feeling in it?? I wonder. This is life. Life goes in a way where there's a lot of obstacles that one could wonder what could it be. I just wish that I can handle the obstacle well enough to be happy and not to be that stress. I just hope. I just hope. I just hope.....