My life has been so sad lately. Nothing fun is ever happening in my life. Instead, problems started to visit me one by one. Must be one at a time then. Can't it come at one short so that my life won't be that bad. Haih...everyday..i put on mask and walked around the world. The world doesn't know I am sad and the world doesn't need to know. The world is not in any position to have to know. The world has its own problem to worry about rather than me. I am so depressed. Not ever in my life when I couldnt find the piece of puzzle that I am looking for to fit into the picture. I couldn't find it and I know that I need to find it soon before the piece is really lost forever.
I am sad...am very sad...and I can tell you why. It all started last week when my desktop has decided to fail me by not detecting my monitor when actually my monitor works. Nevermind about that, my brother has promised that he'll look for the problem and therefore my desktop is in kampar now. Then, on wednesday, disaster struck again when my notebook has failed my when it could be switched on. ah....I really felt like crying at that time. Not two computer in a row. I am really depressed as I don't know what else to do. My life without a computer to play is so boring. I have been sitting quietly in the house doing all the housework for now. So sad.
The reason why i need the computer is also because things hasn't been getting better as time passes by. My mentees are slowing turning into little monsters. I just don't know how to help them anymore when they don't want to help themselves. Playing videogame in the class, chatting happily there, not doing a single work that has been given to them. I really feel like giving up until Lalitha has told me something. That something that has made me realise that I haven't been fair to some of the minorities in the class again. So...i have devised a plan aand i really hope that this plan will work. i just don;t know.
the last thing that I am unhappy about is that not only i have difficulties in controling my mentees, i also have problem of controlling my extra hours. Man...why can't students nowadays just behave like some students. why they have to be a pest when they can be angels. I just wonder.
(this piece is written by my heart and sorry as i have not checked my own writing. Be prepare for lots of mistakes.)
一点一点
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很长时间之后，依然喜欢着这样的感觉，在星光并不是很浪漫的夜晚静静独行。
最早是整个三年高中的夜晚。在慢慢在每天回家的路上一边走一边抖落肩上的疲惫。
街墙的海报，地上的影子，或时而出现一两只猫咪不屑而过……
那个时候一定是对我来说最快乐的时间了
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16 years ago
9 comments:
Hello dear extra-adorable-somewhat-kinda-lovable overgrown canary (compliment)
Awww... u're making me feel bad all over... **pout**But seriously, since when do u lead a broken life? Wanna try a real broken one? as in in most aspects... family, work, edu.... think u're mentally mature to understand all that.
Did u mean your mantees alone or all of us? oh well sOrree, it's not like we're born to be obedient. Well *pout* i for one refuse to completely, willingly, follow orders blindly. (or oh you're depressed of getting a student like moi? OOops) hmm think about it, well just give it a damn and do whatever. so some of us buttheads can't cooperate well.why broken over it? so it's our fault and we admit it. Whatever dissapointments, yadayada is our mistakes then, not u... ya savvy?...
And ah, Mr Goh... Stop getting cranky (trying to look/sound extremely strict), u're scaring us. not that u really look strict (which in the least has no effects), but it's kinda well ya kno.... awkward.
Oh cheer up... here's a fat chocolate bear for u. Well i can't give you flowers can i?
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(^.^) Lighten Up.
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till then... toodles darling....
Heyz.
my deepest apologies that lately i've become one of the monsters tat u mentioned. BEen playing calculator games during the listening class. sorry, i really am. won't do that again.
Haha...when i say mentees...i mean mentees. not students. its a two different thing. since when both of you are my mentees. i am not even in charge of your class. hahahaha...your mentors are both Madams lah. not sir pun.
chill!!
Sir, i do agree with you that why can't all the problem just hit us at once....kinda been asking myself that this year. Some how, I come to realise that, if this is so, then, what is life? No challenge = boring.
btw, why do u need to take care of ur english and grammar while blogging? It's your own interest, somehow like hobby, NOT WORK.
Anyway, just wanna say thank you for your efforts in teaching us during the listening classes, even though you neeed to go through all the troubles in getting the students' attention.
Gambate!!
Well you sound kinda serious... so of course we try to lighten u up... Not that it's normal to cheer up /talk to an overgrown canary that's 10 years older than i... i need more help ya know...
or is it just one of those days where u complain about everything little it sounds so serious? ***pout*** ...
Humph.... once again...You forced it outta me again.... I'll say it one more time...Mr Goh, I hate u.... **stick out tongue** ...
But then, we all have problems... U for one, stop complaining bout ur PC... ur mantees can handle themselves... Like i said... i don't think any of us is willing to be all obedient... Roxanne the Rebel woohoo, like the sound of that... and proud of it...
Of course i have my own problems, I'm depressed, trying very hard not to think 'bout it, you know that very well. So I can't handle my problems, i donno whether my problems are comparable to whatever u have, but, u're not me...sensitive and fragile...And u kno very well how much i admire ur SUNNYness... green with envy in fact. Well was i ever right that u're hiding something? I'll never know. I just admire that sweetheart that tries very hard to make himself and others happy.
So what is it about this "broken" life? It's only your Chapter One at Taylor's College. I'm not asking you to change, sir. But u're learning. that's cool with me.
BTW u no good focussing-on-the-more-chatable-ignoring-the-less-chatty-type-group-of-the-class... Now that you know u're forgetting the minorities, you know what to do..
Great, I can't believe I trust a teach-nono LEC-TUR-ER... You should be proud I didn't plan your embarassing moments like my other teachers... whahahahaha.... Oh C'mon, it's not your end of the world.
Ciao Tweety....
PS...
Your recent British accent (which isn't really british) is really ReEaLlY scaring me...
And ah, no thanks to u... I got my broken english from u as well... **pout**
hahahaha...see....there's one comment that she got the broken grammar from me. :( hehehehe...nah...just that when things don't go your way...you'll feel down but this time is the worse as i can never predict that both my comp will go down. there goes my thickness in my wallet. nah...my mentees are nice at times like on friday. hahaha...after a lecture but my nite class students, the raging hormone kids, are hard to control man. they are the ninja turtles type who never listen to you unless you yell like in every class. man...that's tiring.
hey..hang in there ya? Although I'm not one of ur students in college..but I still tell my frens who are in ur class that you're kinda cool for a teacher. I heard this is ur 1st year in taylor's teaching? well..you'll get use to it as time goes by
hahaha...maybe pearl. but then...life is slowly changing. my desktop is back. my laptop is on the way in another 2 more weeks to go. holiday is another 2 weeks too. my monkey student in my other class has dropped from taking my class and you guys are more controlable than before. so...things are getting good. anyhow, i don't hate people unless you make me really angry for something but not because of teaching. i go by the rules that it is your own option. if the class choose to be like that, then the only thing that i can see is to help as much as i can. but first, you gotta let me know how to help. :)
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