The sky is clearing

Things have settled down. Now it is more definate already. I am more of a loss of a good brother, but I am happy. At least I know the answer to my own misery and I have done making people unhappy about me. Confusion cleared. With the sky coming up, although it is moody, I know. I have to rely on myself. I cannot rely on the person whom is closed to me anymore. Overall, we can't tango if there is only one dancer. There is a different in status. I can't rely too much and love someone who is closed to me, but only as a friend. I am happy. The sky although is moody, at least there is a single ray of sunlight.

Ini adalah secebis hatiku...

Dah...terjadi lagi. I sendiri pun tak tau apa yang I tengah lalu. Terasa secebis kepahitan di atas dada ku. Ingin sangat nak bercakap dengan seseorang, namun, I sendiri pun tak tau apakah sebabnya. Terbangun dari tidur semalam pada pukul 2 pagi. Tiba-tiba, I terasa teramat rindukan seseorang. I cuba nak mentutup mataku namun air mata mengalir di dalam hatiku. I sendiri pun tak pasti apakah sebabnya. I tau, I tengah luka. Tengah luka atas sebab yang I sendiri pun tak pasti. Ini bukan kali pertama ia terjadi. Dah beberapa malam dah. Ingin sangat nak bercakap dengan orang, namun, saya tak tahu siapa. Kawan I dah terlupa I dah ataupun, dia sendiri pun tak tau apa yang tengah lalui. Sakit dan pahit. Terasa rindu dan terasa keseorangan di sini.