House...

It is the time of the year again where time moved too fast from the things that we need to do. I am bored. My life has no sense of direction lately as there are nothing in the moment that can sparkle my life. I need something that can spark my interest and that can make my life a better place to be but then, my roomie is not giving that to me. Now I could understand why women always complain that men sometimes are a bit too stupid when it comes to EQ. They will and can never detect whether and why someone is not happy. Judging to the fact that if he is not my roomie, i don't really blame him as I always put on a show that I am happy eventhough I am not. But then, when I am in the confined space, I am not. I sulk a lot. Maybe it is because I am too tired all the time and there is nothing exciting happening in my life now. I wanna cry! I wanna shout! I wanna break free from this common motion of going to work day and night. I need my life where I can express myself all the time. I miz theatre classes where I can scream and play as much as I want. I miss all these. I miss all these.

I need a guardian angelk to guide me through this. Sometimes I just dun understand if men are made it is away that they can be so selfish as until they can even turn their best friend into enemies in just a minute based on something that they have no interior motives on. Is men really that selfish? Is human really that selfish? Is the world really are like that until to the extend that I am the only one who gives way to people whatever they want if they are my friend? I don't know. I am really lost. I wanted to cry and I really do. I am tired. Very tired. Ijust don't want all these problems to exist especially if it involves a parking bay, and 2 close friends in the same house. I really wanted to move out of the house. To stay away from a problem that both men are so stupid until both doesn't want to move even a bit.