My life is broken...

My life has been so sad lately. Nothing fun is ever happening in my life. Instead, problems started to visit me one by one. Must be one at a time then. Can't it come at one short so that my life won't be that bad. Haih...everyday..i put on mask and walked around the world. The world doesn't know I am sad and the world doesn't need to know. The world is not in any position to have to know. The world has its own problem to worry about rather than me. I am so depressed. Not ever in my life when I couldnt find the piece of puzzle that I am looking for to fit into the picture. I couldn't find it and I know that I need to find it soon before the piece is really lost forever.

I am sad...am very sad...and I can tell you why. It all started last week when my desktop has decided to fail me by not detecting my monitor when actually my monitor works. Nevermind about that, my brother has promised that he'll look for the problem and therefore my desktop is in kampar now. Then, on wednesday, disaster struck again when my notebook has failed my when it could be switched on. ah....I really felt like crying at that time. Not two computer in a row. I am really depressed as I don't know what else to do. My life without a computer to play is so boring. I have been sitting quietly in the house doing all the housework for now. So sad.

The reason why i need the computer is also because things hasn't been getting better as time passes by. My mentees are slowing turning into little monsters. I just don't know how to help them anymore when they don't want to help themselves. Playing videogame in the class, chatting happily there, not doing a single work that has been given to them. I really feel like giving up until Lalitha has told me something. That something that has made me realise that I haven't been fair to some of the minorities in the class again. So...i have devised a plan aand i really hope that this plan will work. i just don;t know.

the last thing that I am unhappy about is that not only i have difficulties in controling my mentees, i also have problem of controlling my extra hours. Man...why can't students nowadays just behave like some students. why they have to be a pest when they can be angels. I just wonder.

(this piece is written by my heart and sorry as i have not checked my own writing. Be prepare for lots of mistakes.)