Thursday, March 02, 2006

Am I a failure....

Yesterday. Yesterday. Yesyerday. Why yesterday must come? Why can't I go on living with a live without yesterday. I had my break down but why must it happened to me. Why me? Why only me? I don't know. My life has been in a chaos since yesterday. Never in a mood for anything that I want it to be (Or at least I can force my way through). It's my life anyway and I have to leave my life the way that I want it to be to a certain extend.
Yesterday exam was a failure. It was really a failure. My life has been in a total chaos. I think my paper is coming to an end. It was the question fault. It was the question fault...it...no...no...no...was it...was it...was it my fault for not studying hard enough? How couldI even let myself to attempt a question that I didn't have the answer for. I don't know. I really don't know. I just want the marks. I just want the marks. I just...want...the...marks. It was a 15-marks question over the overall of 30- marks. That was the reason. Yes! That was the reason. That was the reason why I attempted that question. That was it. That was it. That was it.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Exam...

Exam is tomorrow and what have I been doing. Nothing. Nothing at all. I haven't even started reading. I am going to die soon. Lots of things to study. Dunno where I have put all the tips for the mid-test...how to survive? Haih...

I think I am getting lazier by day. Maybe this is because I have been studying for too long. Non-Stop. From UPSR to PMR to SPM to PSA to UPM to UPM. So many years of studying have finally tired me down. Working and doing my studies is another reason. I wanna give up. I wanna say no. But I know, people around me will push me through. Maybe I should stop for a semester before I proceed. Maybe I should just continue and hopefully finished everything by this year. I dunno. I dunno. I dunno. I dun...no....

I HAVE NO IDEA!